Farewell to a Brother, a poem by John Bolinger


           In April of 2001 my brother David died of lung cancer.  A man of great insight, sensitivity, and intelligence, he also possessed a terrific sense of humor and was always able to become a child again on Christmas mornings, on birthdays, the 4th of July, and on the roller coasters that he loved so much.  I still believe he was a musical genius, not because he was my sibling, but because he had an extraordinarily inventive nature that created complex and brilliant new worlds of sound from the simple strings of his Humming Bird acoustic guitar.  I still miss him terribly.
FAREWELL TO A BROTHER

Summer is over,
And I’m walking on the layers of it,
Like geological sediment
Pressed down hard by time.

The self I used to know
Lies deep under layers of memory,
Where wholeness lurks just out of sight,
To be studied (if discovered) and cataloged
For later use, then tested for truth
And redeemed without coupons, commas,
Or dead leaves that cluster ‘round its center.

One whom I love lies there too,
Buried among goodbyes of
Tears now hard as granite.

The earth spins on that stick
My third grade teacher called an invisible axis,
And gravity keeps us from being flung
Into outer space,
But inner space is what I mean…
With that moment of farewell,
Never to be removed,
But only built upon,
Irrevocably,
A petrified recollection
Of such density, that it remains embedded
Forever in the deepest parts,
Like some hopeless fossil
In that substratum
Of an early April morning,
Perhaps someday to be found
And polished into something else,
A stone for a ring
Or an agate for a cameo
Over someone’s heart.

JB

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Come on Fluffy, This Ain’t No Ballet , by John Bolinger–Another YouTube Excerpt

The wonderful YouTube creative team, that calls themselves ‘onecoffeeaweek’ has brought another chapter of John’s memoirs to life.

I won’t give away what happens here, in Chapter 5; one clue is below. Beware if you are wearing mascara that is not waterproof: you will laugh-cry it off….

Enjoy!  Annie

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ls6p8etKGG4

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Easy Dinner Party Recipes: Baked Chicken Salad, Apple Cranberry Crisp

Baked Chicken Salad Casserole

Preheat oven to 350 degrees

4-6 Boneless Chicken Breasts
4-6 cups of water
2 Teaspoons salt
1 Teaspoon pepper
1 Teaspoon paprika
1 Teaspoon celery seed

Cook chicken breasts in water with above ingredients until tender.  (If
you use an electric frying pan, cook chicken at 300 degrees for about 45
minutes, then turn down to 275).  Be sure to check water levels while
cooking, and add water as needed.

Cool chicken (you will need 3 cups of chicken).

ADD TO CHICKEN:

11?2 Tablespoons minced onion
11?2 cups of chopped celery
1 – 8 oz can of water chestnuts
1 pkg. frozen peas
1 Teaspoon salt
1 Tablespoon lemon juice
1 cup (approx) mayonaise
1 – 2 oz jar of diced pimentos
1?2 Teaspoon pepper
1 cup shredded Cheddar cheese (Use good English or Vermont Cheddar, not the orange stuff)

Mix and place in a 9 x 13 baking dish.  Cover with shredded cheddar
cheese and bake at 350 degrees until cheese melts.  Add large can of
crumbled onion rings and continue baking until onion rings turn golden
brown.

After baking, let set for at least 15 minutes.  (May be served cold the
next day).

Bon appetit!

APPLE CRANBERRY CRISP

Ingredients
4 cups apples peeled and sliced

1 Tablespoon lemon juice
1/3 cup flour
1/2 cup brown sugar
1 cup oatmeal
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/2 cup dried cranberries
1/2 cup chopped pecans or walnuts
1 teaspoon cinnamon
1/4 cup melted margarine or butter

Put apples in shallow 8-inch pan. Sprinkle with lemon juice. Combine all dry ingredients with butter and mix until crumbly. Sprinkle all this over apples and bake at 375 degrees for 30 minutes.

I usually put a small dollop of good vanilla ice cream on each serving.

Serves: 8


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A Weekend of Cozy Poetry, by John Bolinger

 John is both a linguist, and a musician…evident in the imagery and melodiousness in his poetry…Am not giving you too much here… some to savor on a September evening, that feels like late August. — Annie

AUGUST AFTERNOON

Thelma wore a shawl and rocked
on the two crescent moons of her chair,
while the cat sprawled out
like an old fur piece in front of the screen door.

Henry lay on the back porch swing,
reading a tabloid from the Piggly-Wiggly:
WOMAN MISTAKES GLUESTICK FOR DEODORANT-
CAN’T TAKE OFF DRESS FOR TEN DAYS…
The photo said it all.

Billy stayed in his room upstairs
with a mayonnaise jar of fireflies from Sunday night,
their uninspired habitat having drained their batteries,
and on the wall next to the open window,
hung a picture of the family together in the snow one Christmas,
the gray and icy river behind them contradicting
the present, passionate buzz of cicadas outside.

JB

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                           FIXED POINT

He was a bouncing ball upon the words
of someone else’s song,
outwardly happy and energetic,
but inwardly grateful for small things,
like the suppository box,
that showed the good taste
not to include visual directions.

A respectable sinner of quiet yearnings,
he dreamed of breakfast in bed,
but settled for greasy eggs and bacon
in a torn red booth
at AUNT SHIRLEY’S CHICKEN SHACK.

Life became a race
which he was no longer interested
in winning…
His watch ticked and the days clicked
by and by,
dominoes falling one against another
until that morning when
the meaning was gone,
except for snow outside and
a stream of sunlight
through a crack in the curtains
upon his red blanket, kicked aside,
like discarded Christmas wrapping
with no hope at all of gift exchange.

JB

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                  MANUSCRIPT

Minutes are quick passages,
layering themselves into days
that stick together finally
like pages in an old novel.

Part of the plot, lost along the way,
must be rewritten,
motives revised (if remembered),
characters redone, because
they were too romantic,
and unmarked chapters reordered,
because one day
the binding gave way.

No one remembers where they go,
these fragments of thought,
these hopes as empty as
teachers’ desks in midsummer…
   when silence repeats
all the Once upon a time’s
of a life.

At last these costly dreams,
paid for my meager time,
lie scattered on the floor,
and a clock hangs on the wall,
like a big price tag.

JB
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 PROSE FRAGMENTS…JUNE, 1954

The Aunt Jemima toaster cover smiled
on the gold-speckled counter top,
where Mom made pot roast
for Aunt Edna and Uncle Lou.

Sunlight filtered through fruit-print curtains,
like an X-ray of Pete’s Produce Market,
while the twins and I played hide and seek,
and I stayed inside the kitchen window seat
with the vegetables until Donald threatened
to put my turtle Trudy in the oven
if I didn’t come out.

After pound cake with peaches, the radio played
“No Other Love,” a tango for trombones
that made my parents dance
over the salt water taffy wrappers
we kids had dropped on the floor.

Screens pulsed with moths
yearning for the Chinese lamp in the front window,
and when company was gone and I lay in bed,
I wondered if the next day my clothes
would still smell so strong of peppers and onions.

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Treasure, A Poem by John Bolinger

TREASURE

Like a miser
This summer day keeps the sun
until piles of gold lie in the garden,
spent at last on windows, flowers
and a lady bug crawling ambitiously
up a ribbon of ivy.

And in this last possession of time,
in this antiquity of light,
just before the sky
puts on her evening attire
amid the dark luxury of trees
and sequin stars,

over a red Japanese maple
hovers a humming bird,
like a tiny apostrophe,

and today belongs
to that immense plunder
of all days gone by,
kept secret and deep
in the universal heart.

JB

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Indianapolis, Indiana


Ask a Hoosier what true metropolis exists in his state, and he will answer Indianapolis, which is the capital and by far the largest city in Indiana and the second largest in the Midwest after Chicago.  The comfortable mix of urban splendor in the city skyline and the charming tree-lined streets in residential neighborhoods like those on the Old North side are a joy to experience, especially in the spring and fall.  A beautiful city, filled with places to explore and enjoy, Indianapolis (Indy as it is affectionately known by Hoosiers) remains one of my favorite places.

Some of the most striking monuments are the Indiana War Memorial, the Solders and Sailors Monument (completed 1901), and the Indiana State House.  Among the many lovely parks in the city, Garfield Park with its conservatory and sunken gardens is my personal favorite, and the IndyGo public transit system of buses makes getting anywhere in the city an easy, safe, and comfortable experience.  The Indianapolis Zoo is a terrific place to take the kids.

Besides the 22 branch libraries in the city, Indianapolis provides a wide variety of theater and music in places like the Beef & Boards Dinner Theater, Clowes Memorial Hall at Butler University, The Indiana Repertory Theater, the Indianapolis Symphony at Hilbert Circle Theater, and the Madame Walker Theater Center, and the Slippery Noodle Inn, a blues bar and restaurant operating continuously since 1850, when it opened as the Tremont House.

For sports fans Indianapolis is home to the Indiana pacers for basketball, The Colts for football, and for race car aficionados, the Indianapolis 500 at the Indianapolis Motor Speedway.  The Indy 500 races are held in May, usually over Memorial Day weekend, and the Speedway boasts 250,000 permanent seats!

The Indianapolis Children’s Museum is the largest children’s museum in the world, and intensely joyful and educational place of kids (and adults) to visit. I’ve included a photo of the Chihuly scupture in glass of “Fireworks.’ Then there is the Indiana State Museum with a magnificent bookstore that sells my first book, ALL MY LAZY RIVERS, an Indiana Childhood. 

There are also the Indianapolis Art Center, The Indianapolis Museum of Art, the Indianapolis Arts Garden, and the Indianapolis Museum of Contemporary Art.  Dominating the city skyline is the Chase Center, a 48-story edifice with two towers making it the tallest building in town.

Another place in Indianapolis that is very dear to me is the Humane Society, one of the most dynamic and compassionate in the country.  It is run by my friend John Alshire, who has made the Society’s mark through spreading an awareness of what the public can do to save animals and relocate homeless pets.  I have tremendous respect for John, who was born to do the wonderful work he does helping the helpless.  http://indyhumane.org/

Because my roots are thoroughly Hoosier, I am proud of Indiana, its marvelous people, history and culture.  My heart will always be there.  If you plan to visit Indianapolis, give yourself at least five days to savor as many great places and activities as you can.

John Bolinger

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How to Use Social Media to Get Support for Your Cause

Today Sunday 9/11’s Washington Post “Web inSites” column mentions a website, Change.org, that I have to share with you! 

Change.org is a free tool that helps individuals win campaigns for social change (animals, criminal justice, women’s rights, environment, education, immigration are some of the cause categories).

The Washington Post article described how a NYC woman used Change.org to pressure JC Penny Stores to pull tee shirts carrying a sexist message, from their stores. JC Penny got the message, through Change.org, and pulled the shirts.

After people create petitions, with guidance from Change.org, emails are sent to the petition-targets every time people sign petitions…Petitions can be signed through Facebook, or any website, gaining exposure to the Change.org’s million plus community members.

If Change.org gets behind the petition, Change.org’s employees contact media, government, and business leaders.

Examples of petitions Change.org supported are: women getting the right to drive in Saudia Arabia, Bert & Ernie geting married, getting Caylee’s Law, about reporting missing children passed, getting 22 states to take up the issue.

I joined Change.org today, to, hopefully, facilitate my campaign to save Barnes & Noble book stores in Washington, DC. I’m a small voice; I dare hope that, with Change.org’s access to a million-member community, support for bricks and mortar bookstores everywhere will be increased, pressuring corporate heads to rethink closing bookstores, and save the bookstore I love.

Annie

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I GOT THE POWER…or…ADVANTAGES OF AN ELECTRONIC PET DOOR

My lucky friend John Bolinger has a dog door…I am very very very envious, but if I had a dog door, in my house, in DC, the only animals that would come in would be the terrier-size rats. In DC today, it seems that everyone is morosing about 9/11, and the police presence on every street corner, re: guarding against car bombs, has made urban DC almost whispery-quiet, like the white noise spell DC falls under when the Super Bowl is on TV.  This blog needs John’s levity today…Please enjoy this dog-door story on 9/10.  Annie

My West Highland White Terrier Dudley was more than twelve weeks old and continuing to make progress in his quest to discover everything in the universe, which meant basically the house and garden. The sun room with its ceramic floor was his principal residence during the day, where I installed an electric pet door leading to the dog run outside. It took five minutes for Dudley to figure out that the pet door was his passage to the great outdoors. Wearing a magnetized sensor on his collar, Duds has merely to approach the door to make it slide open and remain so for almost half a minute. The door has meant a huge improvement in Dudley’s use of the dog run outside for his sanitary business, but of course, he has no idea exactly what makes the door open just for him. All he knows is that he has THE POWER. There are times when he actually seems to be playing with the door just to watch it go up and down.

Riggs our cat appears to enjoy watching Dudley open and close that little door. In fact, Riggs has developed a new respect for Dudley’s “magical ” powers. Riggs has deduced that when Dudley is near that door, it opens for him. A couple of times, Riggs has followed Duds out to the dog run only to learn that there is no way out to the big city, because there is a bonnet feature all around the fence that will not allow even climbing animals to enter the space or to leave it. Though Riggs has been neutered, we haven’t had the heart to let him know. He still enjoys the illusion that he is a “man about town” and that he is still capable of a night of hedonistic pleasure with all those lovely female cats in the big city. Sorry,Riggs. He has learned that going out to the dog run is no big deal, because his travels end at the gate. Now it’s as though there is really no percentage in following Dudley out the pet door. Riggs simply lies nearby in a bored sort of way to watch Dudley’s exit as if to say, “Ah, there he goes again to that dull and roofless room out there. Think I’ll stay here and nap.” Any previous interest in a partnership in crime between the two has faded, at least for Riggs.

Dudley is now able to go outside into that safe, enclosed but open space whenever he wishes. This is a major step in his training, one that has certainly made my life much easier. Now if I could just discourage Duds from eating books. I know they are probably high fiber, but really, he has chew toys all over the place, and my copy of GOOD DOG, BAD DOG is still missing, except for a chewed corner of the dust jacket.

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Remembering 9/11, an Indiana Teacher’s Perspective — by John Bolinger

As 9/11 creeps up, DC, where I live, and NYC, are under terrorist watch, for car and truck bombs…, and I am a little nervous. Just came back from a bike ride, where I saw police protection at the Washington Monument, and all over the city, — unobtrusive, but present — reminding me of 9/ll. DC is such a small city, that I could see the Pentagon’s smoke, from my office in DC, a half a mile from my home; at the time, we thought that the Smithsonian buildings were on fire as well. I’ve been curious about what people who live in ‘safe states’ remember about 9/11; I asked John for his recollections. At the time, John was still teaching high school, in northwest Indiana. I was curious about his students reactions…and if everyone felt safe there. Below is John’s story. — Annie

On that Tuesday morning of September 11, 2001 after nine o’clock during second period (my conference hour), I was busy grading a set of French quizzes from first period, having a mug of hot chocolate, and listening to WFMT, my favorite Chicago radio station.  My radio was an old wooden Zenith from 1955, but the tone and reception were excellent.  It was a sunny day that allowed light to flood my classroom from the south wall of windows that overlooked the track and football field.  The only other sound was that of chalk writing on the blackboard next door in Mr. Maicher’s business class.  My radio continued to transmit music, the last selection being Aaron Copland’s orchestral film music for OUR TOWN by Thornton Wilder.  Then suddenly the world changed in a matter of moments by that unforgettable emergency announcement.

Almost at the same time, the announcer on the radio and our school principal over the public address system spoke of an airplane smashing into the side of one of the Twin Towers in the financial district of New York City.  The meaning of this news item didn’t register in my brain right away.  The horror of the news was so extreme, that I was actually numbed into believing briefly that some kind of drama was being played out just to see if we were awake.  The radio offered no visual images, so my mind had to fill in the pictures to go along with the spoken words.  Just as the sharp reality of the first crash began to cut into my psyche, the second announcement came of the second plane slicing through the other tower.  By this time Mr. Maicher, the business teacher was standing in my doorway with a look of perplexity and disbelief, putting both his hands in the air in a questioning gesture.  He froze in that position for at least a whole minute and looked like an exhibit from Madame Tussaud’s.

When the bell rang signaling the beginning of third period, I stood in the hallway, as I always did between classes, to see and hear hundreds of students and teachers talking in fear and disbelief of the recent events.  My third period English class was hyper that morning, wanting and needing to talk about what we had all heard in the announcements.  By then it had been accepted that the crashes had been no accident, and more details were shared over the P.A. as they unfolded.  My students wanted to talk about what had happened and to try to understand its significance, so that hour was spent in discussion and in a quick lesson on Pearl Harbor of 1941, an event before any of us had been born.  The kids wanted reassurance, as though we might be the next ones to be attacked.  My heart went out to them, as they were really shaken by the terrible but gradual clarification of what had occurred.

Needless to say, the rest of that week classrooms and the faculty lounge were abuzz with conjecture and much discussion of what we had all heard.  The evenings that followed were filled with television coverage of the events of 9/11, and the images of those planes slamming into the two towers, the vision of those collapsing buildings, people leaping from windows to their deaths, crowds covered in ashes fleeing the area, the sights of the injured and bewildered citizens of New York in chaos were embedded forever in every American heart.

By Friday evening I was saturated with those horrific images to the point that I watched THE ANDY GRIFFITH SHOW for some healing.  The episode was about the speeding city slicker whose life was one big race to get nowhere, a man who in the course of the story learned from the people of Mayberry how to relax and to appreciate the simple joys of being alive in a peaceful little town.  At the end of the episode,  Andy plays the guitar while singing “The Little Brown Church in the Vale” with Barney and then the two of them leave to get an ice cream soda while the city man sleeps on the porch in a rocking chair, relaxing perhaps for the first time in years, an apple in his hand, the peel spiraling down to the foot of the chair in one long piece.  It was a welcome reminder that our country was still there and that there would always be pockets of innocence and gentle people, who appreciated what they had and where they were.  Mayberry that evening became my escape into a black & white shared recollection of an innocent and gentle past, but I knew that none of us would ever be the same again.

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Come on Fluffy, This Ain’t No Ballet , Memoir of an Indiana Adolescence –excerpt

…Another excerpt from John’s book Come on Fluffy, This Ain’t No Ballet… Annie
     
Chapter 3 The Task of Basketball

Being in the seventh grade made me feel from time to time like an actual adult. It was a pleasant if short-lived illusion. My parents allowed me to choose my own clothes, even though the most outrageous fad for boys in 1958 was cotton slacks in colors like red, lime green, and orange. The slacks were not denim material, so the school accepted them as appropriate garb as long as belts were worn and shirts tucked in. Color combinations became pretty dazzling, considering especially that boys think little about color coordination. The result was, for example, orange slacks with a red shirt, which for a boy is fair game as long as the clothes feel good. There was even a brief fashion flirtation that year with the boys wearing their dads’ neckties, especially the wide ones from the 1940’s. I wore my dad’s beige silk tie with red hearts on it. The thing was four inches wide at the base and had to be clipped to my shirt so that the tie wouldn’t slap me to death in a high wind. Now I can understand why teachers rolled their eyes in apparent disgust when we entered classrooms wearing that stuff. We must have looked like the Shrine Circus.
It was at that time that Mrs. Delaney, teacher of Home Economics, convinced the girls to be creative in their grooming and to experiment with hair styles. Carolyn Catterton took this advice to heart by coming to school with a different hair color almost every week. It should be remembered that this was 1958! When Carolyn came to Mr. Erwin’s homeroom with pink hair, he put his hands to his temples, saying in his most serious tone that Carolyn was in true danger of becoming bald. That was the last of the experiments with hair color. Though the other girls continued to try various new hair styles, including the currently chic French twist, no one of them ever approached the level of Carolyn’s bravado by dabbling in unconventional colors. Carolyn was ahead of her time (a head of her time?), but we didn’t know it yet. I remember admiring her for having such a liberal mom and wondering what it might be like to have parents who gave carte blanche for any old thing. It was something I never found out.

Mr. Leslie was our instructor for Health and Safety class, during which we one morning had a discussion about smoking cigarettes. As I was not exactly a Hell’s Angel, Mr. Leslie seemed to enjoy mocking my innocence and my total disregard for the importance of football. He couldn’t understand that anyone who otherwise seemed like a red-blooded American boy wouldn’t be passionate about bouncing around a field chasing a piece of pigskin. He just couldn’t see that I would rather have a root canal or be in a car crash pile-up than to watch or play a game of football. I was completely honest with him about my feelings. During our class discussion on smoking that morning he asked me with rather a wry smile if I had ever smoked. When I answered, “No,” he continued by ribbing me with, “Aw, come on, Bolinger, haven’t you ever snuck out behind the old barn for a few puffs?” “No, sir,” I replied. “Well, why not?” he continued. “We don’t HAVE a barn,” I said. As the class chuckled, Mr. Leslie lost his smile, stiffened his posture and then glowered at me before giving us our homework assignment. If he had never liked me before that incident, it is certain he never did afterward.

As I was leaving his classroom that day, Mr. Leslie stopped me to ask if I might be interested in playing basketball during the lunchtime intramural games between homeroom teams. It seemed that my “yes” to his question about my having basketball shoes sealed the deal before I knew what had occurred. Suddenly I was on Mr. Erwin’s homeroom team and scheduled to begin practice after school the following week. The funny thing was that I knew nothing whatsoever about basketball but was too shy, proud, or embarrassed to ask about how to play. It looked simple enough, so I decided to copy whatever I saw other players doing and fake my way through the season. All I really knew was that two teams tried to get the ball through their own baskets. Trying to fit in, I went virtually unnoticed the first couple of practices. As with many other junior high kids, my true gift was blending in so as not to be seen at all.
It was at our first game that it became clear to all and sundry that I had absolutely no idea what I was doing when I became disoriented and began blocking my own team members from making shots. Helen Keller would have known, had she been in the bleachers. With no more awareness or sense of direction than the pinball in a machine, I went blindly from one area of the court to another in constant but useless motion. The comedy of it all was not lost on the crowd either. Mr. Erwin’s team lost the game but achieved more laughs than the Harlem Globe Trotters ever dreamed of. Mr. Leslie had the biggest smile of all, as he had accomplished a little bit of revenge, which I didn’t understand until many years later.
After a month, Mr. Erwin had a quiet talk with me about the glaring fact that basketball was probably not my milieu. That’s when I began dreaming several times of being an astronaut, able to get as far away from the earth as possible. It was 1958 and Sputnik was in orbit, where I too wanted to be. The final blow came when in class one day Mr. Leslie compared Sputnik to a basketball with antennae.

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